( sorry, she writes, and then promptly deletes it. alina rests in limbo, in the pause that follows — off-kilter in the way their conversations tend to move like the churning rock of a ship. unpredictable, liable to cause seasickness from turbulence, never letting you remain steady on your own feet for long.
it's compounding, frankly, to try to make sense of him. lexi the riddle, lexi the puzzle. lexi the arrogant prince, lexi the displaced. mourner and menace both. she blows out a long, unsteady breath, fingertips hovering over her phone's blinking screen. )
You might want to reconsider announcing yours titles on the network and inviting unknown women into your bed, then.
( there. firmly back on their usual solid ground, the status quo of sarcasm and prodding teases, so she doesn't have to force herself to re-examine the twists and turns of their dynamic. )
( it's strange. he never intends to drop his trauma out of nowhere. they're just facts to him.
but of course, he's had thirty years to make them so. details of his life. like the history book being written as he goes. he's detached from these facts that they'll right alongside his name.
or maybe not. he never can tell. )
what can i say? i get a thrill from taking the risk :)
( unforgivable, if she let the world's most annoying man have the last word in a conversation. the ping of a read notification lingers, blinking, on his screen for a long, stretching moment. then: an unprompted picture, dappled in lakeside sunlight: )
Don't worry. I'll enjoy it enough for the both of us.
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it's compounding, frankly, to try to make sense of him. lexi the riddle, lexi the puzzle. lexi the arrogant prince, lexi the displaced. mourner and menace both. she blows out a long, unsteady breath, fingertips hovering over her phone's blinking screen. )
You might want to reconsider announcing yours titles on the network and inviting unknown women into your bed, then.
( there. firmly back on their usual solid ground, the status quo of sarcasm and prodding teases, so she doesn't have to force herself to re-examine the twists and turns of their dynamic. )
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but of course, he's had thirty years to make them so. details of his life. like the history book being written as he goes. he's detached from these facts that they'll right alongside his name.
or maybe not. he never can tell. )
what can i say? i get a thrill from taking the risk :)
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( perceived, called out, seen, etc. )
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I can't believe you're arguing about which word is better suited to describing your fantasies.
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i like kink. rolls off the tongue better.
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Is being pointlessly frustrating your "kink"?
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i should make a list for everyone's convenience.
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( and thus ends the saga of how alina starkov got her first hernia. )
I doubt there's enough paper in the world for you to write all of them down.
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enjoy the sun, Alina. maybe i'll message you tomorrow for more fun :)
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Don't worry. I'll enjoy it enough for the both of us.